She Looked Like Art

jueves, diciembre 28, 2017


Thank you for seeing museums in me
where I saw empty hallways.


You hold my hand while we walked around the walls that contain the art of past centuries. And while I was seeing the canvas and thought how Van Gogh must have felt while painting the starry night, you were looking at me pretending that you were not, because you wanted so bad to understand what I saw in those old peintures. I remember you telling me that afternoon  "no matter how hard I try to comprehend what is so mind-bending about this, I can't. I just can't see it". At that time I laugh and I tried to explained you the reason and the story behind every single painting. You were busy trying to kissing me in every hallway empty of people. But we were not alone. We were surrounded by all this incredible artists, whom made me feel so damn much, I felt so understood around them. Art is supposed to make you feel something but you didn't think I was art. You couldn't see it in a wall, therefore you couldn't possible see it in me. And I ignore all the signs that told me that you were nothing but a little fun for a little while, because I wanted to change who you truly were. Or maybe it wasn't about changing you, but to pretend I was blind and couldn't see your nature. I guess I am saying all this stuff to tell you that it was okay if you didn't see all the things that I did. I know you tried. I know you were messed up and have all those voices in your head. I just wish mine would've speak louder. As Vincent wrote to his brother Theo the same day he visited the Fabre museum: "you need to suffered a little inside before being able to remake yourself". I hope you're better. I hope you no longer see empty hallways, but pure art. 

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Me sostenías la mano mientras caminábamos alrededor de los muros que contenían arte de siglos pasados. Y mientras yo veía los lienzos y pensaba como Van Gogh se debe haber sentido mientras pintaba la noche estrellada, vos me mirabas a mi pretendiendo que no lo hacías, porque deseabas tanto poder entender que veía yo en esas viejas peintures. Recuerdo tu voz diciéndome esa tarde "no importa cuan duro intente comprender que es tan alucinante de estos cuadros, no puedo. Simplemente no puedo". En ese momento me reí y trate de explicarte la razón y la historia detrás de cada pintura. Vos estabas ocupado tratando de besarme en cada pasillo vacío de gente. Pero no estábamos solos. Estábamos rodeados de todos esos increíbles artistas, quienes me hacían sentir tan, pero tan profundo, me sentía tan entendida alrededor de ellos. Se supone que el arte tiene que hacerte sentir algo, pero vos nunca pensaste que era arte. Ni siquiera lo podías ver en una pared, ¿por que lo ibas a poder ver en mi?. Y ignore todas las señales que me decían que vos no eras nada que un poco de diversión por poco tiempo, porque quería cambiar quien realmente eras. O tal vez no se trataba de cambiarte, sino de pretender que estaba ciega y no podía ver tu verdadera naturaleza. Supongo que estoy diciendo todas estas cosas porque quiero que sepas que esta bien si no podías ver todo lo que yo veía. Se que lo intentaste. Se que estabas destrozado y que tu cabeza era un caos, y tenias todas esas voces en tu cabeza. Solo me hubiese gustado que la mía hablase mas fuerte. Como Vincent le dijo a su hermano Theo el mismo día que visito el museo Fabre: "necesitas sufrir un poco en tu interior, antes de poder rehacerte". Espero que estés mejor. Espero que ya no veas pasillos vacíos, sino puro arte. 















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  5. Me ha encantado la historia!! Cada vez te superas más!!
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